Sometime it is no fun..

I am having a day. Not a bad day but just a day. As I had said in an earlier, my son was born 9 weeks premature. Due to an oversight by the hospital, our paperwork was not confirmed to receive help with the medical bills not covered by our insurance. Soooo, we were left with a lot of debt stemming from the 21 weeks of bedrest I was on, and our little guys 50 days in the NICU and his surgery and his oxygen and his heart monitor and apnea monitor he came home on. OH and his special thickening agent that was $ 400 a month...but I refuse to be bitter...I am blessed!! I have a beautiful and healthy 2 year. He is doing great in his speech therapy and this occupational therapy. Over all, everything is great... but it looks like I may have to return to full time work. This is probably a good thing. Jedi needs to start socializing with kids his own age. He will only have to be in daycare a few days a week because we have a great support system. But I am sad. Sad that we need a new house, sad that we have all these bills... sorry that working from home has not been working out. I have one more stay at home job I am trying to get. But I am not sure how that is going... all in all.. it is a wait and see thing.. and I do not know how much I can wait. Anyway... I take comfort in knowing whether I am a working mom or a stay at home mom... I am a mom.. a very HAPPY MOM!!